so i've basically been on internet hiatus since... like thursday. friday night was best buddies prom, so i didn't go online. saturday i went prom dress shopping (yes i got a dress, if i happen to find a picture i'll post it) and then went to steamer's jazz cafe to watch evan and stacie perform and then went straight to my aunt's house for passover. talked to evan on the phone that night.

in the morning i knew he had ap review class thing, so we were gonna hang out after at like 1ish. but then i got a text from an unknown number (turned out to be brandon carl) around 11ish saying that evan got in a car accident and is going to the hospital. i was scared cause it was so vague, i had no idea what happened or if he would be okay. so eventually i had my mom call his mom. and she said that he had crashed into a tree, went to the hospital but was awake and coherent but couldn't remember the accident, and that he'd be in ICU for 3 days.

sooo. i was worried all day. even though i knew he'd be okay, but everyone fears the unknown and didn't know like anything so i was crazy worried. i literally laid in bed all day and listened to music and played solitaire. i'm really good at solitaire now.

monday... basically depressed all day. i didn't put any effort into classes, didn't talk much. i went out to lunch during 6th period with mr garcia and mr davis and that made me feel so much better cause they forced me to talk and have fun which was really nice of them.

then later that day stacie came over and she helped me make a get well card for him and then we went to the hospital to visit him. it made me feel SO much better to see him. he had a few scratches on his face (joe calls them battle scars) and on his hands but otherwise no broken bones.

and now i know exactly what happened. so here it is.

so he was driving down yorba ranch, and it's hard to explain which part but it was down a steep hill and there's a sidestreet with a stop sign but no stop on the main road, so he was driving down at the speed limit and this guy pulls out and doesn't even stop and doesn't look and evan is too close to stop so he tries to switch lanes and slow down but he loses control and crashes into a tree in the center divider, but the car hits on the passenger side. basically the whole car was smushed but the driver side was okay. people who saw the car thought that he wouldn't survive and stuff but he did. he didn't have any broken bones, had a concussion and some head trauma, and bruised lungs. and today he said his shoulder's sore and kinda hurts. but everything should heal and he'll be back to normal in 2-3 weeks but he can't go back to school for a while.

today he got moved back home and i went to go visit him after the nhs board meeting. it was nice to just hang out with him again. and then some of his jazz friends came over and that was pretty fun. i think he was glad to have them over, especially since they're all going off to reno tomorrow and evan's staying home. he's bummed but he knows there's not much he can do about it.

also went to visit ucla again yesterday. that was a really good day.


and i'm just. so. glad. that he's okay.



quite an interesting experience, especially when we've only been together less than a month.


excited for prom. excited for ap tests to be over. excited for college to be over. excited for graduation. summer. orientation. band camp. :]]




--mandee--

so it's almost april. in like five minutes, actually. by the time i finish writing this it will be april.


and april means that march is over, which is a relief. in january i thought march would never come soon enough. now it's gone.


1. my parents have agreed for me to go to ucla.
2. i (almost) have a boyfriend.



you'd think i'd be happier, right?


i dunno, maybe it just hasn't hit me. i'm bad at having emotions. i'm bad at falling asleep too. i think it'll hit me when i go on a campus tour, when i submit my SIR, when i go with klee + klee's bro on a more personal tour of LA (and miss school!)... it'll hit me when he makes it official.


meh. i've known that i've wanted to go to ucla since... 8th grade. i remember it was because jason was going there, and i had mrs esparza for history and she rubbed off on me like crazy. sophomore year i assessed my ability to go there by immersing myself in extra curriculars. junior year i realized it was kind of a stretch, and that i might not get in, but i had already pushed myself to do more so when i had put myself on track for ucla, so then i was merely hoping for ucsd. so then when ucsd rejection came in and i was a finalist for csuf scholar's program, all my hopes of living away for school seemed shot and i was really down for a week. i don't think anyone understands how much of a surprise it was for me, especially after SD.

it was also probably a hard decision for my parents. we've been tight financially for over a year now, and so it was choosing between an amazing education for $20k+ per year or paying nothing for a more or less standard education. but i think it will pay off in the end. my parents were mostly worried about me being financially sound in the future (engineer vs teacher) so i think they'll be satisfied to know that when i finally get out of school (surprisingly i haven't thought too much about grad school; one degree at a time) i'll be making $50k+ starting salary while saving the world (haha i know not really but i like calling slowing down global warming "saving the world" because it reminds me of heroes and hiro is always trying to save the world; and it's easier than saying using science and engineering to produce alternate energy sources that can be used to slow down global warming and eliminate the world's dependence on fossil fuels).


and i must say, trace is way more excited about me going to ucla and living in dorms than i am. it seems like she'll be spending more time in my dorm than i will be. :P even klee was like, "wow mandee, you're reacting to getting into ucla way different than everyone else." and... i know. haha, i have no emotions. i can say for sure i'm excited about marching band though. at ucla the clarinet section is called the 'nets. hahahhaa. :] i can't wait to perform in the rose bowl stadium. and at cal too. and moving in 2 weeks early for band camp. yayyyyy band camp. it'll be so fun being in a band that actually cares about the band.



zot!


i dunno what the ucla bruin sounds like. haha.


+  = 


:] okay enough college rant.



--mandee--